I do not remember the last time I had been happy. It feels like a distant memory, a fading light in the stormy night. Days after days, the sadness and the grief have piled up. The thing is that till now I have always thought that all this would end one day. Somehow, all the pain will ease away, leaving peace in its wake. However, peace now seems a rare luxury, only to be found nowhere. In the past, I have tried all the solutions and worked on all my weaknesses, mended all the broken pathways. I still cannot seem to reach a place where I can finally let go of my sad self and embrace a happier version of me. All my life, I have hurt by people around me. My trust has been broken more times than one can possibly count. I have been left alone in the dark times. Every time I feel a hand will come out of my darkness and pull me back to life, I have been wrong. Never has anyone felt the need to stop on the track and ask me if I were okay. Over time, this kept on multiplying and growing tremendously. Now, I sit here all alone, writing down these emotions, knowing that I will have to fight alone and make it out of this dark place that I have been captured throughout.
The virgin slave #2
I am supposed to be completing my assignment right now. But , here I am; still thinking about that angelic face . Her mesmerizing eyes left me wanting for more. The condition is much more critical with me since I haven't dated in what feels like years. You see, the problem with me is I am a very, very private guy. And one thing I assure you is that I never play with emotions. And since I am busy sorting my life, I haven't been on the market for long enough. Dating a girl is not just going out with her and having fun. It's meant to be some serious shit, and serious shit is what I never mastered! Flings and one-nights are more of my thing. The problem is when you date, you germinate a bond. Bonds come with responsibilities, and those responsibilities just fuck with your brains. No offense, but I cannot take that risk just right now. Life's already been messier enough with my graduation and family issues. To top it all, I am not a guy, a girl can easily handle and I know ...
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