The virgin slave #2

I am supposed to be completing my assignment right now. But , here I am; still thinking about that angelic face . Her mesmerizing eyes left me wanting for more. The condition is much more critical with me since I haven't dated in what feels like years. You see, the problem with me is I am a very, very private guy. And one thing I assure you is that I never play with emotions. And since I am busy sorting my life, I haven't been on the market for long enough. Dating a girl is not just going out with her and having fun. It's meant to be some serious shit, and serious shit is what I never mastered! Flings and one-nights are more of my thing. The problem is when you date, you germinate a bond. Bonds come with responsibilities, and those responsibilities just fuck with your brains. No offense, but I cannot take that risk just right now. Life's already been messier enough with my graduation and family issues. To top it all, I am not a guy, a girl can easily handle and I know it well. I am moody and difficult, possessive and obsessive, emotional and unemotional. And despite all, I cannot forget her. The moment she walked out of my life, she crushed my soul, my heart and left me blank . I just cannot date anyone , I guess I am not over her. I cannot still forget the betrayal and all that stunt she pulled on me. Anyways, the thing is  I am suffering from the longest dry spell in the history of earth. And those eyes, the way they shone at me , the light they carry in them, the way they blink capturing the whole world in them; I am a gone case. This is going to be interesting, I suppose.

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