It all started the day i decided to meet him. He was waiting for me on his motorbike, wearing a black helmet; looking as sexy as I had imagined a million times before. I felt captured in his gaze. His voice left me star struck. He was the deadliest combination of sexy and innocent; my very own innocent devil. Over time I forgot the basic fact that no matter how innocent devil is, he will kill you eventually. Recently, I am realising that the game we started , is no longer JUST a game for me. It has become some serious shit. The more I talk to him, the more I want to continue talking to him. The more I make love to him, the more I want to keep loving him. The more I see him, the more I want to lock him in my gaze. He is becoming my addiction, a drug I crave each night. My bedsheet smells of him , I smell of him, my soul smells of him. He is the dom of my desires and I am the sub he never actually wanted. These filthy desires of mine have been clogging my life. Everywhere I look , it's him and me; doing things that I am not proud of !! He has leashed out a power in me. This power is pushing me to my limits. I don't know, I will make it out of this, or I will lose myself in this. He is the biggest risk I have taken. But also, he is the one my body wants. For the first time my body is foraging somewhere far-off. My body and soul have left each other. I want him, but i don't want him !!

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Fahad said…
Great work Akansha di!.. very well written :)
5 March 2017 at 11:13
Prashant Singh Rathore said…
Anything and everything in life is worth giving a try. You did the best you could do and that makes you live with no regrets I believe.

If you love someone, that very moment just make your hopes disappear, set them free and let him and them fly.... because you can't cage them and you shouldn't do it as well. Let them keep your hopes and expectations, it's their responsibility now and if you will keep on admiring over it then my lady off course things are going to hit the hear hard.

Simply,
Wo Nasha kya Nasha jo asani se utar jaye aur wo Sapna kya Sapna jo neend Na uda de..! !!
Jo samay ke sath utar jaye Dil se, wo pyaar nahi hota.
Aur pyaar hai to use paana hi jaruri nahi hota.
Please rethink on this...
28 June 2019 at 18:59
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